fuck it.

i knew that i was just. expecting too much when i asked you to be there, when you promised that you’d be there if something was wrong, that if i need to talk to someone it would be you. but now. you got me to tell me so much fucking shit about my life then just pushed me away? now how is that keeping to your promise? :/
i can’t actually trust people now thanks to you. you still say that you want to be the one that i turn to if i’m upset but can i even really trust you anymore? if i tell you more will you just walk away? probably :( i don’t see the fucking point. whenever i’m at my worst you’re never there. and then the next day you talk to me like everything is okay? really? if i never told you when something was wrong would you even care if i was gone the next day? no. so fuck it.